dugaan besar

assalammualaikum

finally, i've got the chance to update my blog
it has been a long,long time since i leave malaysia
now,today
it has been about a week im here
in a new place
all alone, except friends

people might think that
wow, it is great to further study in uk
honestly, service and people here
is much much better than Malaysia
if to be compare
but, deep in my heart, i miss Malaysia a lot
i miss Malaysian, Malaysia's food, Malaysia's culture
all about Malaysia
maybe you might think that i'm homesick
might be yes, might be not that much

my time getting worse when there are
sessions where we will be separated into groups
of maybe 10 to 20 students
and i am alone
to be the only Malay
oh,there's one girl called Amira Nadia, and she's not arrived yet
and im waiting, excitedly waiting for her
so, there's i sat in the middle of the room ( for every session)
alone
with shyness
and less of self confidence
and of course, i've changed to a non-talkative me
which is,again,not me

it is not that i refused to mix with the local
but they totally ignore me
maybe,they think that i cant speak english
but, i did 'hi' them
and ask them where they are staying..and bla bla bla
but that's all
and the conversation all ends up there

i did try to mix with them at least
and i try to start a conversation
i didnt know what stuff should i chat and talk to them
coz,i didnt partying like them
and they always ask me which bar did i g0 -.-
tension kan?

so,for a conclusion
i wanna go home!
ya allah, tabahkan la hati hambamu ini
amin :'(